I'm scared of ghosts and goblins and... pizza?

Happy Halloween!! Ok today is the first day I feel irritated I'm on a life style change (aka - Diet)... I want to have a normal breakfast, I want substance for lunch, I just want SOMETHING. But then I realize I have had all that SOMTHING for way too long and have extra SOMETHINGS on my body... (as in fat cells).

Maybe I should be a science experiment for halloween... ugh.


I'm ok, no cheating, but I just feel, well deprived.

I had a decent breakfast cereal and a not so decent cheese tortellini lunch, but just scarfed down a great salad with mushrooms, celery, sprouts, peas and cucumbers with FF Ranch...

Wheres the pizza?

I feel like I'm on cloud.... 7!!!!!!!!!!

YAY! I woke up and immediately wanted to weigh myself to see what my 7 days of nutrisystem have brought me... and I have lost 7 lbs!! 1 pound a day... can you imagine if this lasted?! I know its a pipe dream, but sometimes dreams come true ha!

I am feeling a littttttle lighter a looooooooot happier, and overall motivated!

By the way I have had the eggs twice now for breakfast, and am shocked at how adding water to powdered eggs makes it look like you just took em off the frying pan! They're yummy! no lie! Even my office mates were impressed.

Oh and by the way, I think Ash and I made up the fact that we can't have caffeine, because I got an email yesterday from a NS counselor reminding me to drink 64 oz. of water a day... and mentioning I cannot count my tea, diet soda or coffee as my water intake since it has caffeine!!! I read that through, and stopped. Re-read it and became giddy!!! You mean I CAN have my crack in the morning!!! HAHA! This day is just gettin better and better!

Although I already had a large coffe, and am feeling the effects, I'm awake, and alert but feel well... feel like I could've slipped some opium into my cup. I'm high. And not looking forward to coming down... when is that for us addicts? Around 3pm??

Note to self... have a coffee at 3pm... ugh back to the addiction.

But still down 7lbs!!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow is D-Day

Well nothing too exciting to report today. I had an OK dinner last night consisting of chicken parmesan. I'm getting a litttttttle bit sick of the pre-prepared doesn't need to be refridgerated foor, but it wasn't bad. This morning I woke up to being back down to my 6 lb. weight loss. makes me happy, as my weekly goal (tomorrow) was 5 lbs.

I still have yet to get to the gym, and am getting the hang of my energy on this, so I truley have NO EXCUSES. Excpet... I have to go get a halloween costume tonight, so I'll start the no excuses tomorrow. Promise...

Ok so i get to work, on time, and happy, have yummy granola cereal, and a large DECAF and am good. I force myself to have a yogurt too, but would've been satisfied with just the granols. Crazy right?!? Only last week was I having a breakfast sandwich for breakfast and big huge sandwiches for lunch, not to mention the 1000 calorie dinner paul and I seemed to get used to every night. This nutrisystem is a great thing for me. Brings me back to reality, with a healthy perspective on food and portions.

So here I am, 1:30pm full from my healthy portion of cucmber salad from the deli (note: made with fresh dill and rice wine vinegar) and haven't even touched my lunch of pasta with beef (in a baby food jar.) Hmm wonder why I don't crave it...

Crack kills

Soo I began my morning LATE!! I was even planning to go into work early, but nooo I was LATE! So I spring outta bed rushing, but not rushing past that scale!!! Give me a good number, keep me happy I'm whispering. UP A POUND! What the TRUCK?? I was starving last night, and now I'm up a pound?!?!?

I yell "what else am I supposed to do?!" but before I finish my sentence I answer it. Work out.

I gotta get back to the gym. Just eating baby food sized portions isn't gonna cut it. I need to burn these calories too! So tomorrow is back to la gymnasia. No excuses, exhaustion, low energy, starvation, whatever! I need to get back!!!

So I head to work pissy, late and feeling bloated. From what?! The apples I eat? Oh or maybe the 2 oz. of cucumbers I had for a snack!? No?? Ughhh... pissy.

Anyways I get to work have my cereal, which never disappoints, and ask my office mate to grab me a large decaf down stairs.

As I begin to wake up, answer emails and slowly sip my decaf I feel giddy. Happy actually, and kind hyper. WAIT A MINUTE! Why am I happy?! Why am I smiling???? Ahhhh she forgot to say decaf. I am getting my much needed crack which I have deprived myself since last friday! Sadly I am ecstatic for her mistake and drink it down with no inhibitions. I am on cloud nine, I am getting my work done in record time... I am addicted...

Crack kills....

Don't FAINT!

Ook soo yesterday was a blurr. I didn't even get out of work until 8pm... thats the NYC work ethic. Soo as I'm heading home I feel a bit woozy, light headed actually. And I feel desparate. On an normal day I would stop somewhere and have a slice so I didn't keel over in hunger, but no. I am on this to win it! No cheating, its not even a question... but as I slowly drag myself to the PATH station I begin to panic. Starving shaky and exhausted I head home not allowing myself to think about it.

Once home I look for the heaviest item in my dinner box! Yumm Chicken Florentine with Fettucini Sauce. Can't wait! Yet as I remove it from the microwave I get nervous. The sauce is kinda... gray. And the smell is well... stank. I take a bite UGH. NASTY! I hold my nose and slurp it down as fast as possible. Nauseous the rest of the night thinking about what I just ate... I head to bed. Disappointed in my meals of the day.

However because I had been so good on my plan I was planning to lose some more come Tuesday Morning...

Monday is not so manic anymore...

Monday is always a drag. Whether you're on a diet that shrinks your stomach to the size of a ping pong ball, or not. Mondays just lagggg. But I did wake up on time, and although I feel like I ran a marathon, when in fact I actually speant a marathon's time laying around this weekend, I do feel good.

Its funny how a few shed pounds makes your brain tweak a little bit. I am happier, allowing myself to look at my stomach in the mirror without dread (because I know it will go down more and more) and am not bitter at all. Honestly I am so happy I did this!

Oh and by the way the money that you're worried about spending on this (in my case $300 a month) is actually a life saver. As I was buying $10-$15 lunches alone! I had $200 in my account last thursday for 9 more days, and I looked in my account today.... still $200!! I am SAVING money by doing this as well!!!

Ok ok I'm sure you're thinking, there should be SOME cons in her story... here is the con.

My boyfriend's parents took us out to dinner last night. I had a yummy mac n' cheese with beef from the trusty diet box so I wasn't starving before we went. Well 3 hours of calamari, mussels a burger, fish n' chips and salmon over lentils... while I had about 7 diet cokes and a bowl of lettuce (no lie)... I did feel deprived. I mean come on... they were all happy and drinking the best wine and beer, eating their little hearts out... dipping their bread in the mussels... YEAH!! IT SUCKED!!!!!!!

Phew got that off my chest. But I stood on the scale this morning, still down 6 lbs. WORTH IT.

There's a lot to eat. so don't cheat!

So its Sunday morning, and although my energy has been a bit down, I would have to say this program works!! The food isn't bad I swear! I've had really hearty split pea soup, Lasagna with Meat Sauce, and even mashed potatoes with meat loaf. All good! I mean its not good like the 45 grams of fat dishes they would be in a restaurant, but really tasty no lie!

But what I am loving is the deserts. The brownie was moist! The chocolate bar melts like real chocolate, and the microwaveable cake was.... ok well that one tasted kinda like the day I tried to make healthy brownies... looks like brownie, tastes like sour dough. But by my 3rd day on the program (last night) I wasn't pissed about that. It was edible, so I ate it.

If anything, this diet is reminding me that healthy food is good, you can eat all day and still lose weight, and once my energy is up, and I start exercising I'm gonna be a bombshell!!

Oh yeah, did I mention I'm down 6 pounds? Yeah day 4.... 6 pounds. Those who say they didn't lose weight, cheated!! But I've got motivation bitches!!! No cheating for me!

Lunch, metmucil and a whole lotta tummy

Ok so I had my baby food sized portion of cheese ravioli, and I'm not upset by it. yes it was tiny, but add the lettuce, cucumbers and fat-free honey dijon to my lunch completion, and I'm not dying of hunger.

Sooo I was told by my colonicologist (no clue what shes really called) that I should be taking fiber regularly. I recalled trying something like soluble fiber in my water a few years back and gagging at the thick consistency, but now that I'm in "don't starve yourself" mode I decided to rethink it. So I went to CVS, bought a sugar free orange flavored Metamucil bottle and walked back to my desk in anticipation.

I took the Metamucil about 30 minutes ago and am feeling full, relaxed and happy. Lets just hope my colon stays that way...

Day One Weighs a Ton

Ok so I am starting the first day of the rest of my life today by beginning my nutrisystem journey. I will have to begin by saying its 11:57am and I am a teeeeeensy bit dizzy, so pardon the shaky hands, typos may be a sign of hunger...

I woke up late, as I am absolutley exhausted from my evening last night. I was so amped to start this program, but felt... well bloated by all the bad stuff I've been eating lately. So like any normal person, I decided to consider how I could cleanse myself before the big day... You guys might think I'm crazy but I've always thought of just doing a one-stop-shop internal cleansing... so I did it. I went to a Colon Hydrotherapy session (otherwise known as a colonic).

For those of you with virgin ears, a colonic is basically a hose attached to your ass that pumps water in, then releases the massive amounts of junk out that your poor intestines have been harboring since you were 16 and thought the Atkins diet was healthy.

Sooo long story short, because of my bright idea to go get cleansed, I am completely empty inside, have a dizzy spell every ten minutes from the lack of elecrolites the water expelled from my body (with that sausage stuffing from thanksgiving of 2002) and am dehydrated to the point of hallucination... or is that really a turkey sandwich in my office mate's hand? Hmmm.

Aaanyway. So this morning, I dragged my ass outtta bed, grabbed a maple brown sugar oatmeal for breakfast and a cheese tortellini for lunch. Not too shabby except for the fact that the cheese tortellini is the portion of a baby food jar.

I wait until 9:30am to crack open the oatmeal, looks regular to me. But the directions say add 5 oz. of water (oh 5 oz.? Hold on while my pocket sized water scale does the measuring) and put it in the microwave on medium for 5 minutes. Ok... two things here... first of all who has a microwave that has a medium setting?? Am I crazy or do all the newly DIGITAL microwaves have 1 power setting? I can slightly recall in my childhood a microwave with a dial on it, maybe that had medium or high, but seriously just tell me how much time. SO I put my oatmeal in with what I guess was 5 oz. of water and set it for 5 minutes, watching intently to make sure thats not too much time. 1 minute... looks good.... 1:30 looks fine 1:54 I hear a big POP. The oatmeal is now all over my company's microwave. (not to mention the people behind me who just wanted to warm their damn coffe). Ughhh so whats left of my oatmeal? about 2 tbs of oats and 5 oz. of scolding hot maple water... greaaaaatttt.

Now you can understand why I am dizzy. 12:17pm... I can't wait anylonger, I'll report back on the tortellini baby food.